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被一件事情困扰太久真的很不好受。
洗澡的时候想着，吃饭的时候想着，上课时做功课的时候也想着。
我有在想，我到底错在哪里
错在我怪你们没有把disc早点给我？
错在我出尔反尔说了share 又不要share?
错在我不知羞耻地拿回五块钱？
错在我没有选择一直拼命地向你要那个disc?
出尔反尔是我的错，要回五块钱是我不理智的错，
但是我的这些错足以让你们讨厌我成这样？
share的意义不就是大家都要平均地得到一个东西？
对不起， 在明天就考小考今天什么都没有的情况下我当时真的很慌
我当时以为明天就考第三四五课。

我终究没有想到，
一起上学
一起吃早餐午餐晚餐
一起考试
一起住一个屋檐下
一起过生日
一起谈心事
一起去玩
一起不喜欢一个人
一起买内*
一起帮你男友庆祝你的生日
一起帮你男友一起给你第一个月的惊喜
一起说好要把二十一岁生日搞得轰轰烈烈
有过很多一起的闺蜜
现在很讨厌我很恨我
还是你们想说你们一点都不讨厌我不恨我
因为我在你们心中已经不再是一回事？

感謝上天讓我遇見了你。從來沒有遇過像你那麼無恥的人，謝謝你成了我們的反面教材，好讓我們引以為鑒，不會變得跟你一樣。

我当时在想是不是在说我，我告诉自己不要对号入座，可能真的不是我，但是想了又想分析了又分析我还是很难过，我觉得你在说我。我从来没有对你那么坏过，我只是发了一次脾气就成了无耻的人，你们的反面教材？我们的友情真的是那么脆弱？ 还是你们没有把我当过是朋友？我当时很气愤， 我告诉我的朋友我发生了这样的事，他说别人生气时说的话不能当真，所以我没有反击因为我自己心里知道这些话看了又多痛心

Come and grab your koala/kangaroo! Or noughatssss too :D — with Junni Sim and17 others.

我的名字没有在里面其实已经是预料到的事。我再告诉自己这世上没有人有义务对自己好。说不伤心是这年里最假的谎话。 没办法，是自己闹脾气在先。

Chilling ^_^ — with Junni Sim and 2 others at Coffee Berry.

一起的元素里面已经不再包括我。。

I think the absolute saddest thing is when you really truly believe you have a friend in someone, and they backstab you. It's heartbreaking isn't it? Sitting there wondering what you did to deserve it after investing so much time and love into a person...but why is it that we sit there truly affected and hurt but the other person easily walks away like nothing ever happened? I am someone who constantly forgives but maybe, sometimes we have to give on people. Not because we don't care anymore, but because they don't. We were fine without them at some point, and we will be okay again.

这些又是什么，你直接说你讨厌我不爽我我也不会那么介怀。跟朋友说诉苦也是backstab的一种。你真的觉得我一点感觉都可以没有然后若无其事地走掉？你真的那么在乎我？我真的可以令伤心地哭出来那种？如果是我立刻马上向你敬茶道歉。我认真的，如果我在你心中那么重要，我自己却感觉不到， 我会惭愧我真的会向你道歉因为如果真是这样的话，我也不想失去你这个朋友。能遇到跟自己同一天生日的华人女生朋友真的不容易，更何况是兴趣和喜爱的东西相似的人。 可能也因为这样所以我们互排。自小人缘就不好，对这种事情可以说已经是见惯则惯，百毒不侵的程度。 但老实说自己还真的不到百毒不侵。 我的脾气很不好，我有话直说那是对于不熟的人，对于朋友我真的是无策可施。

js,刚刚那封whatsapps信息真的是你打的吗？
还是我自己太敏感？
但的确是我错在先，对不起。
以后你也不会再借我东西了


我们已经这样了？
我们已经不再是我们了，而是我和你们？
不管怎样，
谢谢你们曾对我的照顾和包容
如果这不是你们唯一对我生气的事，真心对不起




现在是时候不要再想好好地做database功课

the 'finally' semester break

thank god i am finally having my semester break lol.
six subjects, six, six major subjects for the second sem exam,
drift me like a donkey and made me gone crazy.
i will never forget the days i have to drink at least 2 cups of rich coffee, the days i couldn't even touch my bed, the days i didnt even have time to bathe. * erm, i know it's so ewwww but please, lord know how stressful i was.*

million thanks to my best friends, joey, janice, junni, ryan and more, for teaching me, accompanying me, and everything =) love ya' all. i have decided to move out from my current hostel and rented another single room nearby my uni. there are better environment, better housemates (i guess), more freedom etc. hope that i can have a better result in year 2. i screwed for several subjects in year 1. As i said, i will never forget these days , how negative i was, how stressful how in-confident i was. ='( no!no! no! these must not happen again ='(

im looking for jobs...yes you heard me right its jobSSSSSSS i need. i need money. all my friends know im not a good saver,i love to shop. i love clothes,bags, !@%^^$*#^$#&#!~~~ LOL. but i will not be lazy to work because i get motivated when i know money is coming haha.

alright that's all for today. will update again soon.

22/03/2012

its been quite sometimes i didnt update my blog.
rather than saying im busy, and letting people feel that it is always an excuses, i admit im lazy.
degree is not that easy, to be honest, it is quite tough for me. yet, i have promised myself to do the best. go go casey!

today wasn't a good day. but at least i was not late for class. lol
saw one of my friend's status on facebook '' No matter how good you are to people, you will always have others criticizing you .'' i agree with her. =)

feel so warm every time viewing my own blog, reading those post i have posted, and reminded me how positive i am, reminded what and who that made me burst a river, reminded me what i have promised to myself, etc.

i deserve every best thing in life!!!  gambateh casey <3 

The 19 Me.

I swear I will work harder, smarter to achieve what I want to achieve for my life.
Family, Friends, and Knowledge will be my property.
I will get scholarship for my degree course in University of Nottingham soon,
I will have time, and money to spend on whatever i want .

I deserve all the best thing in my life.

my 19th birthday

have a great birthday celebration with my hubby and friends.
im so appreciate that i have you with me hubby,
you always tell me what i should focus on and teach me to plan.

a big thank you to zackbiy, nicholas, boay, kekmon, and lisha.
although you guys didnt manage to make the celebration mysteriously, i enjoyed it very much.
thank you muack muacks. =)

hubby boy's big day.

it's my hubby boy's big day!
well he is in a very good mood recently so am i . =)
slept very late yesterday just to make him a birthday card so yea i woke up really late this morning and here comes my dark circle again ='(
but it is worthy because he likes the cards i made for him <3 <3

i will be working at JASPAL midvalley next monday onwards.
i dont really like to work at shop floor and of course, i more fancy with office job as it's challenging and for sure i will have learn something new afterall.
with just a foundation cert now, i have no choice but to work at shop floor. anyway, i will still work hard and earn hard.

i am in the library of inti college waiting for my hubby boy .
why do i specifically mention the Inti college?
haha because i am no longer the student here, yoohooo!
i am shifting to University of Nottingham.
will do my degree course there and hello future, the bright successful casey's future, i am coming!
ask those bitches and jerks to watch me carefully.
i am getting nearer and nearer to my goals.

i just viewed an old friend's blog and i realized her english has really improved a lot.
i am so guilty to say her english is better than me now.
wow , she must be appreacited the two genius that re-educated her. haha. * erm, why do i feel the haha so sarcastic?
anyway congratulation and keep it on.
i must do revision and push myself to be better,
i want to show them how good still i am w/o them . herh!

picture of the day:

the cards i made for him =) it's angry bird!



1/6/2011

这几天考试真的考得我很累。
这是spm以后第一次那么拼。
因为当你知道自己要什么却不去拼的时候就是其实你还不知道自己要什么。
因为如果你是真的很想要一个东西时，你会想尽办法得到它； 既然它没有让你拼的动力就代表你并不是很在意它。
就像我老妈常说的： 很多事情是看你要不要而已。
这是我从她对我十七年的唠叨里最唯一赞同的一句话。哈哈

别人都说你可以的时候就不要在那里讲东讲西说自己不可以；
别人说你不可以的时候你就更加要证明给他们看你可以。
这是我这次学到的东西。

当然，
朋友和家人的支持也让我有继续努力的动力。
谢谢你们。

呃。。。其实我还没考完试， 还有最后一科哈哈。
不要打我