decision

life is always out of expectation.

why say so? sigh. i thought i'm going to take my diploma course in tarc college, but since my dad said:' i dont feel like going to let you live there, its quite far from home plus its dangerous. maybe you can think bout other colleges which is nearer like sunway or inti?' yes, i admit, my eyes came with tears after i heard this, such a touching statement, but dont worry, im not feeling touch, i feel sad. T. T the word 'fuck' came out from my mind after i heard this. dad wouldnt know hw expensive is the fees in sunway college and inti college. in conclude , tarc college is the only college my family can afford me. well, i 'm not blaming on my parent, i know how hard they work and i know their burdens. what i can do is just lock myself in the room, and find a lots of quotations to get myself stronger . yes, i'm Casey! i'm the BEST !!!!!!!!!

after gathered my confidence, i have a discuss with the one i respect most in the world, brandon, my teacher. he is not genius, but god. lolx.he suggest me to take stpm. yes, its the most save and fastest compare with others. but i dont have a good image about it. since i know what is stpm, everyone is telling me that stpm is hard, its just waste people time. until nowadays, still. but nobody could tell me how hard it is? and why do you say that its a time waste? WHY WHY WHY?

finally, i gave myself a conclusion after 2 days. i chose stpm. if its hard, i'm strong enough to handle it. if its a time waste, but it give me a better future. suddenly remember the poem we learnt in school before, the road not taken. yes, same with the poet, both of us ve chosen the road which people dont dare to go.

but afterall, i have to wear the secondary school uniform. = = how sad it is. wuuuuuuuuuuu~~~
here to wish all my friends and myself have a good future. ^^