29/08

accidently found these.

well the first thing came to my mind was: omg. im prettier previously.LOL

but frankly speaking, for me, previously was more happy.

yet i didnt need to face a lot of problem, and the main thing is i didnt need to hear any mumble or complain from someone, and one more, i didnt need to work under you.

thats the benefits but if you ask which do i prefer, except answering you the logic ans like ''i cant choose'' i would say, i prefer now! why? hmm....should i say im stronger than the previous me? and i bet im matured than the previous me. i know the truth of realistic, from you , and you. thus, i prefer /like/love the new me. plus, i have a bang of true friends as well as hubby. they treat me sincere. at least. unlike you!

come back to the pleasant topic. omg! guess what? i gonna have a trip to ipoh and penang with the loves yen ying, tzia tshen, kien hor and hubs. that would be the first time i have trip with friends without any guardian. cool yea? and i pay by myself. ^^ cant wait for it. but before that i have to study for the math and econ test, and completed the general studies as well as business studies assignment. so yea the trip would be the best motivation for me !!!!!!!!! ^^

got to sleep. good night. ^^

24.08.2010

had a blessed birthday.
appreciate to my classmates for the cake and the wishes.
and had fun with kien hor and hubs in the car/shop/midvalley/cinema?
sorry for giving you the wrong direction, maybe you are right, im worst in giving direction.
anyway, thank you *bow*

i wanna better life.i want i want i want!!!

i lost abit of my confidence recently.dont ask me why.

i'm thinking how to make myself better. i did believe that im the best but recently, somethings went wrong. and these made me felt that actually im just too small and too little in the world.

well, if you ask me how's my result?i would say im just average in every subjects. i do not have any outstanding performance like maybe specially good in some subjects.

what? outside appearance? shut up. i dont wanna hear that anymore and im not going to talk bout this anymore as well.

fortunately, there are something which warm and fulfill my life.there are him, friends and daddy.they love me . of course, i love them lots. and i ve promised, i will do my best for everything in life. not gonna let myself feel regrets .

gather up all my confident again. casey the best casey the best !!!!! i rock the world. yeah. lol *bigwidesmile*

please.

please dont ever do that again.

it hurts.

=(

photos sharing.

here i am. i took this in the library. while i was doing revision of business studies and mathematic. hubby was actually teaching me mathematic and i ignored his teaching, play with the phone camera. yeepeee. ^^ i found that this is the most beautiful angle of me. agree? but someone said i look exhausted in this photo, is it?

this is mr.chan the gay. took it at midvalley's jusco . guess what, he told me that he has never play this before. i laughed like hell. haha. cute . ^^ hmm....he looks unnatural in this photo. too excited of playing that? XD

well there is only 2 photos actually.sorry sorry sorry..... yet i do not have a camera, even a phone camera......(shut up, dont laugh) these photos was taken through baby's phone camera....sigh...nvm...must vs wants. calm calm calm down....(sam : change your state, change your limiting belief) oh yeah~ haha. stay tuned.

i'm really pissed-off

wth

i have no responsible to do these kind of thing for you okay?

dont you think you are the one who need to plan/discuss with me?

and why now i am the one who gonna ask this and that somemore i need to hear a lot of shit answer from you?

how would you feel if you were me?

you should consider other's feeling, shouldnt you?

sigh. and now i clearly know that what a true friend be.

i didnt regret to the decision i ve made to leave the fking school,

the different environment has made me to become more matured though im still childish.

its better than you and thats all.

i shouldnt back stabbing here but besides i have nowhere to release.

im sorry, i still treat you as friend, just i have my own emotion.i hope you could understand.

hopefully you will never do this again, okay? =)

gonna swim with mr.chan tmr. yeepee~ =)

its all about how you value it.

was busying for the csc presentation in the past few weeks.

and i felt kinda frustrated because of the lack of time and lack of money.

i do wish that i could do as what my friends does, have class in the morning/afternoon, and back to home sweet home for what they wanna or like to do, it could be take a rest, internet surfing, shopping, books reading,movie , do revision and so on. i have no chance to do these because i have to work/tuition at the nights and help parent to work on weekends.

you might admire me as i get a best part-time job ever and i wouldn't have chance to say such words like '' aiyoorrr, what to do, darn sienn'' '' aiyorrrr....boring day again.'' ..........what i might say are maybe these ''im kinda tired....feel like going to sleep.'' ''oh sh*t, i have to stay over night for the assignment today. lecturer said have to hang up tmr.'' ''arghhh.....how i wish i could have time to do revision. '' yes, i know what you are thinking now. of course, of course i know ones who couldnt arrange his/her timetable properly, called failure. but look at this before you put me in that failure category.

timetable

mon: class at 2pm----6pm. work at 8.30pm----10pm. Tfree time=3hours (9.30am till 12.30pm)

tue: class at 8am----2pm. not working . Tfree time=8hours (3.30pm till 10.30pm)

wed: class at 4pm----6pm. tuition at 8.30pm---10pm Tfree time=5.5hours (9.30am till 3pm)

thurs:class at 8am----12pm. work at 7pm------10pm Tfree time=5hours (1.30pm till 6.30pm)

fri :class at 12pm---6pm. work at 7pm -------10pm Tfree time=1.5hours (9.30am till 11am)

sat :help parent to work at 5am till 5pm Tfree time=4hours (6pm till 10pm)

sun :help parent to work at 5am till 5pm Tfree time=4hours (6pm till 10pm)

Total of the total free times=31hours/week

=31hours/168hours

yes, is an ample or plentiful life. but please, i cant live if there is no movie/books/date/revision/fun in this 31 hours. so yea.......im really in the situation of not enough time.

and come to the lack of money case. i should be rich because i work so hard, but where the hell is my money? okay, let me think let me think.....yea, i used it on eating and movie. i have to admit that im really bad in management of finance, and guess what, i wanted to be an accountant before. sarcastic to say, im fool and brave!!!!! f. i spent few hours to think about these in this morning, no, im not fed up, hubs has given me a help to figured out for me. LOVE.

whats the plan? nahh im not going to tell now, maybe after we get our first success?

p/s: i do not hate my job, i love it. especially when i saw my students are improving, i feel proud. ^^ LOVE. what i hate is i dont have time to do the things i wanna do. yet i know i have to accept this, as what i always say, do things which people dont do.

Casey the best ever. applause please?