i hate being neglected!

im unhappy.

im unhappy im unhappy.

feel like crying but your words came out in my mind.

be tough.

you wouldnt know how do i feel now.

25/07

its a tiring day.

went to parent's working place to help.

oh god, i do wish time could pass fast so that i can get nearer to the life that i want.

am busy in preparing the basic computing's presentation. with the ' enterprise computing' topic.i do apologize to all my teammates here as i didnt manage to get the topic we wanted. but i do believe we can do things which people unable to do. we are strong !!!!!!!!! right? *wink*

argghhh...how can i make myself better? i want a better result, i want a better outside appearance, i want a true friend, i want a better life.....thus everytimes i asked myself the same question, and its killing me inside. what i can do is just keep telling myself,im the best im the best im the best im the best.....and now i start to feel tired.......p/s: thank you hubs for encouraging me all the time.

miss my secondary school friends badly.gonna meet them on 7th and 8th of august. yeepeee...

wong joe yee

teoh jasyn

lee yi ling

jasmine

yi hwa

oh yea,Dolma, my student who comes from Tibet , she just did the test last thursday. she is so lovely. and i realised that she doesnt try mangoesteen before, so i will buy her this thursday. ^^ what? take a camera and capture her expression while eating mangoesteen? well.....okay...if i have a camera then. lol.

23/07

have officially started my real intake for almost a week.

got to know alot of new friends.

hubs is now on holiday so yea, have to live without his accompany these few days.

but really, my timetable sucks. its like:8am to 2pm WITHOUT BREAK. or 2pm to 6pm WITHOUT BREAK again. everyone knows i would die without food, dont tell me this is all about fate, so that i can lose weight easily. i rather die okay? XD

my mathematic lecturer, mr.victor is extremely funny. his quotation: math is logic. so far he is the first mathematic teacher who born with sense of humor in my life. LOVE

so yea, most of the day my class ends at 6pm, and after that i have to work at peak performers at 7something. i dont have time to rest, even time to bathe.im actually tired. i have no choice though because i must be responsible to my student and my job. and this is the only way i get extra money. sigh. nvm, other way to think, im strong enough because i do things people dont do. (self-comfort)^^

well look at the photo, do i look like monkey? XD

happy birthday to kien hor.

mr. kien,

i would like to say:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! ENJOY YOUR SEXIEST 18TH !!!!!!!!! XD

p/s: and you are legal to watch 'adult' movie from now on. lol

good luck

mr.chan is going to sit for his final later.

goodiiiiiii luck ~~~~~~!!!!!!

lack of ......

well im having my cheerful holiday for one week.its not really cheerful actually.= =

nothing special , just a week for me to stay at home.

yes you are right, i wouldnt stay at home, im not that kind of person. but you might have to understand, ones couldnt do anything without money. owh, money.

i was actually saving rm60 for clothes purchasing since last week but i used it up on last saturday. (the mpw day) .omg. how could i used it up within just that few hours? im really capable.

will there be any miracle? such as wake up in the next morning and found money in my pillow case? or out of sudden i found money on the floor?= = i gonna crazy soon. do not need to escape because im not asking you for money, just...............a little bit maybe? haha (kidding)

nahh, forced to stop here. gonna haste to the restaurant for dinner. bye.

money money money!!!!!!!!

experience

mr. chan wei tsen did something wrong today. *laugh*

we were stoned max while the XX kissed the pillar. lol.

but in other way to say, we experienced it TOGETHER.

no worry hubby, learn from mistake. ^^

p/s: and next time you wouldnt dare to tease at me anymore. haha

warmth

there is a feeling comes towards me.

a feeling of getting clear about the future.

it is warm and touched.

what can you see in the picture?

i saw you,

and me,

with love.

the mpw day.

finally yesterday was the mpw exam day.

the exam was at 12pm till 3pm and i reached at 10am. went to the library for the last revision before i go into the exam hall.

hmmmm......should i say it is hard? its actually fine but just i didnt put all my effort to study. punch me, anyone? XD

i was wearing a blouse and a mini skirt with my 'hot n spicy' high heel shoes and i was sitting just under the air-conditioner. i purposely sat there actually. just to keep myself aware. aware for? nothing. XD finished my paper at 2pm. what a light speed. i didnt double check it, felt like giving up? maybe?

past up the paper to the lecturer and rush out , the first thing i did was send short message to kien hor. i asked him to go sunway pyramid with me and he was going to give me a lift. waited under the bridge and eventually he came with his car. dont knw what XXX7033. heh!!!! after that met hubby at his working place(yes he was currently working as a part=timer but just untill yesterday.), we told him that we(kienhor, tzia tshen , yen ying (<----tzia tshen's honey) and i ) decided to go snowflake, ktv or maybe steamboat. he was unhappy because he had to work and couldnt join us. plus he didnt want me to drink cold drinks since i had got period pain on friday somemore i told him i was going for snowflake. his reacted as = = . he asked me not to order those ice but hot stuff. could you imagine? i went to the snowflake but i was not eating ice. its freaky weird. and i was not that happy because i was neglected by him again in the shop. he pushed me away from the embrace. hatesssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!

after met up tzia tshen and his honey , a bunch of us went to snowflake. yeepeee!!!! and yk joined us as well. i love yk!!!!!!! she is kind of the cool girl and she is real . love ya. i was so clever for ordering the hot stuff. but i ate i/2 spoons of ice from kienhor's. luckyly i ordered the hot stuff because hubby did asked kienhor what did i order. it was like fhhewwwwww.........haha .

went to steamboat after that. its been a long time i didnt eat steamboat. had been waiting for 40 minutes. it was fun but i didnt enjoy because mr.chan was emo-ing at that time. yet this caused me emo as well. but i quickly put this at side while i saw the food. lol. mr. chan came at 10something and they both accompanied kienhor to fetch me home. lol.

and they told me they wanted to go for the second round, it might be ktv, clubbing or something else. i was like hellllll!!!!!!!!!!! looked at the time and its already 11something. i know i couldnot make it since im a cinderella. went home with sadness and this let me know how did hubby felt while he knew we(kienhor, tzia, yen ying and i) were going to have fun. the feeling is like your hubby and friends are going to have fun and you have to stay at home. your mind keep guessing where are they, what are they doing .....etc. god!!!!!!!! it was killing me .

hubby told me that they were going for movie. and i said good night and bye bye. but i knew i was impossible to sleep well. sigh. i wouldnt do these to hubby anymore. T^T

how was the exam? chieehhhhh, throw it away and forget bout it. i have tried my best and thats all.

its the study week/holiday?

im not in mood recently. the most reason is because of you, and the other is all about the mpw.
oh my god, im actually nervous about it. the final is on this saturday and yet this telling me that i still have only 3 days time. i couldnt finish it, could I? btw i will try my best. since i love sejarah in my secondary school time, so i bet i can do it. have to ask mr.chan to calculate the probability for me of getting an A. *smile*

drove to school yesterday and i frighten nicholas. he said i almost bang the car at my sides. but actually i didnt notice it. haha. and i enjoyed. ^^ im a dangerous+ cool+ funny driver. duhhhh, have to practice still. mr.chan was trying his best to train me in parking skill. im still suck though. haha. thanks hubby and sorry for frighten you. but i know you did enjoy teasing at me. ciieeehhhhh.

off to midvalley yesterday. no worry, it was just a window shopping. i want the vincci watch. it is so nice and just left 2. omg. when will i get it? sigh.fine, im saving my money now. hmmmm......time to do revision. see ya.

im suck in driving?

i thought my driving skill is fine, but after these few days of practicing, im totally wrong ! =(
drove to midvalley yesterday, dad was sitting beside me, and mom was sitting at the back. they kept mumbleling to me. it was all about " be careful the car from your left/right, remember to break , slow down, look, ..........!$#@!%$%$@!$^%!@^ " oh my god!!!!!! i was dead !!!!! i felt like shouting shut up!!! i cant even concentrate ......sigh. i know i have no patient but really, it was too much mom. = =
and i hurt my tummy. because of the car's door. it bled like hell. tried to ask hubby to call me but he was so busy. i was neglected by him. well, maybe i should do what i ve promised, let him be free with his friends and family, i was blue though. could you understand me?

im not sad, im just............sigh.